I gave myself my first shot of my new medicine and I was shocked at how I did not feel a thing. I have always felt the ovidrel shot thought it has never hurt. I am to take the shot in my leg instead of in my lower abdomen like I have done with the ovidrel. I was not thrilled with the news of administering the shot there because there is less fat there than in my tummy but it was simple. I will admit that I was very nervous and scared because I did not want to screw anything up. Not only is this an emotional ordeal but a financial one as well, insurance stinks in what it will and will not cover. I read over each step of the directions twice and then pow, I did it. I did get a little blood when I pulled out the tiny needle but nothing to cry to mom about. Tomorrow night I get just the pills because I am to skip every other night for five days.
I go in on Friday to see how things are developing. I could have the procedure as early as Saturday because the doctor says that the shots and pills could cause the follicles to mature sooner. He also says that with everything I am doing, the possibility of having twins is 15% and triplets is like 3%. I would be okay with twins although my husband would say that we would be done at that point. I want to be pregnant three successful times. I love it.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Ciao Cyst
I started my period early this month, a Godsend, and went in to have my ovaries scanned for any cysts and to make sure the one I had was gone. I was so happy to hear that it had gone and that there were already follicles developing. I had 4 on the right ovary and 6 on the left. This was very promising news. Promising but not that great because there can be a good number of follicles but the ones that mature are key. I had to watch a video on how to administer the shot I will now be taking for three nights and then listen to the nurses explain what all was going to happen this month since I opted to be more aggressive.
I went to pick up my medicine, pills, shots (one vial that will last three shots) and my ovidrel. I payed almost $500 for all that. I chose not to get the progesterone at this time because I had some left over from the last time. That is the excuse I used because I could not handle seeing the bill with that added on. Will see how the shot goes tomorrow but i am really excited this month. I pray that this time will take.
I went to pick up my medicine, pills, shots (one vial that will last three shots) and my ovidrel. I payed almost $500 for all that. I chose not to get the progesterone at this time because I had some left over from the last time. That is the excuse I used because I could not handle seeing the bill with that added on. Will see how the shot goes tomorrow but i am really excited this month. I pray that this time will take.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Time To Start Again
I am getting to start again, for the fifth time. My husband and I are wanting to expand our little family and have a second child, though at times it seems like it is only me. We have been trying since March. When I say try, I mean going to the fertility doctor. And each try has resulted in a negative test and a lose in self esteem.
Each month I go in, they check for follicle development and for any cysts. I have never had a cyst before until this past month. Talk about a blow to emotions. The thing I want most is a fertilized egg but instead I get a large cyst. They tell me that the cyst is nothing more than a follicle that did not close all the way and it takes a complete cycle for them to go away. Let me back track and say that my chosen profession involves educating young minds and my only time window to try and get pregnant is in the summer. With the development of my cyst and having to sit out a cycle, that puts my next attempt at the beginning of the school year. Talk about cutting it close. I go in tomorrow to see if the cyst in no longer a cyst.
If there aren't any cysts then I get to take medicine and hope that it stimulates more than one follicle. I seemed to have done better on lesser dosages. The higher the milligrams the more my body rounds out, like how I phrased that one, the more emotional I become, and the less it seems to work. The highest dosage gave me a cyst for goodness sakes. I am changing medicines and have opted to go very aggressive and take shots. You know you really want something when you are saying to bring on the shots. No pain, no gain is what I always say.
On the 12th day of the cycle, I go to see how well the follicle/follicles have developed. Silently, I lay there with the prob inserted in me and pray that there is more than one and that it is a go. If all is well, I go home, take the ovidrel shot and go back in the big moment. Then the waiting game begins and two weeks later, a pregnancy test.
This has been my life for the past four months. Am I crazy for continuing this? No! If you want something bad enough you do whatever is necessary and pray daily. Luckily, I am surrounded by my husband parent's love, generosity, and support.
I want to be more aggressive so let's see what more aggressive gets me. Hopefully this month's roller coaster ride will having me laughing at the end of its ride instead of crying.
Each month I go in, they check for follicle development and for any cysts. I have never had a cyst before until this past month. Talk about a blow to emotions. The thing I want most is a fertilized egg but instead I get a large cyst. They tell me that the cyst is nothing more than a follicle that did not close all the way and it takes a complete cycle for them to go away. Let me back track and say that my chosen profession involves educating young minds and my only time window to try and get pregnant is in the summer. With the development of my cyst and having to sit out a cycle, that puts my next attempt at the beginning of the school year. Talk about cutting it close. I go in tomorrow to see if the cyst in no longer a cyst.
If there aren't any cysts then I get to take medicine and hope that it stimulates more than one follicle. I seemed to have done better on lesser dosages. The higher the milligrams the more my body rounds out, like how I phrased that one, the more emotional I become, and the less it seems to work. The highest dosage gave me a cyst for goodness sakes. I am changing medicines and have opted to go very aggressive and take shots. You know you really want something when you are saying to bring on the shots. No pain, no gain is what I always say.
On the 12th day of the cycle, I go to see how well the follicle/follicles have developed. Silently, I lay there with the prob inserted in me and pray that there is more than one and that it is a go. If all is well, I go home, take the ovidrel shot and go back in the big moment. Then the waiting game begins and two weeks later, a pregnancy test.
This has been my life for the past four months. Am I crazy for continuing this? No! If you want something bad enough you do whatever is necessary and pray daily. Luckily, I am surrounded by my husband parent's love, generosity, and support.
I want to be more aggressive so let's see what more aggressive gets me. Hopefully this month's roller coaster ride will having me laughing at the end of its ride instead of crying.
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